Random Musings

You know, I love to travel. I have lived and visted many places in my life up to now. I have traveled way more than the average person. I didn't realize this, until I started talking to people and realized that most folks don't travel very far from their own home. Let's see, where have I lived? I have lived in South Dakota, Minnesota, Hawaii, Colorado, Virginia, Pennsylvania, Missouri, Ohio, Germany, and Kansas. In the U.S. I have visited (including where I have lived) starting west and moving east: Hawaii, Alaska, California, Washington, Arizona, Utah, Nevada, Colorado, New Mexico, Kansas, Missouri, Nebraska, Iowa, Minnesota, Illinois, Tennessee, Kentucky, Indiana, Wisconsin, South Dakota, Texas, Ohio, Pennsylvania, Florida, New York, Virginia, Maryland, New Jersey, Vermont, New Hampshire, West Virginia, and Georgia. I think that's it. My favorite places in the U.S. are all of Hawaii, Alaska, parts of Colorado, New York City, and Chicago. In terms of countries,...

about nothing.......

I am in a crappy mood. I haven't gotten much sleep, so I am sure that is what it is. Work is annoying, my marriage is pissing me off, I don't want to buy a house anymore....blah, blah, blah....The whole world sucks.....But I know it is just a mood and if I get sleep, it will pass. I am in such a bad mood, that I thought I wanted to type this, and now I don't. So, I guess what I will do is just sign off for right now. It is really interesting how perspective changes just based on the mood your in. Most of the time I am in a pretty good mood, or at least content...but when I don't get enough sleep, or I am stressed, it all goes to hell. What can I say....I am human....

I could totally get in trouble for doing this....but oh, well. Hopefully no one will find out. Haven't been feeling that well the last few days. Caught something, but am starting to feel a bit better. Things are going well. I guess the newest news is that I have been looking for a house to buy. This is somewhat stressful. Although I want it, I am not sure how long we will be here. The housing market is down, but I think we can rent it out if we decide to leave within a year or so. I have to say that I like the stability of living in one place and having my wife around more. It makes life easier. Jobs are coming up, but I don't think I will apply because of the house and this job. The job is the same. People here aren't going to change. I haven't been in the best of moods the past few days, and I am sure that is because of my feeling bad. Need to get plenty of rest. I am very tired. Oh, I have also been watching my weight and diet very closely since coming...

So, I haven't written for a while. Well, what's new. What's so strange about these Blogs is that I do this annonymously and no one kn0ws that I type this. If they really wanted to know how I felt all they would have to do is check my Blog out. Anyway, not sure if I reach anyone with any of these, but it is therapeutic for me nonetheless. As many know, I have done some soul searching lately....probably the last 6 months for sure. I have revealed a number of weird things about my personality/character that I want to change. Mostly to do with all the negative shit that I spew at myself all the time. I realize now that I jump to conclusions, get irrational, and it all has caused me great pain. I have also held grudges which have gone no where except to hurt me. At any rate, things are looking much brighter now-a-days. Been really working hard on myself. Strangely, as I have been working hard on myself, a number of other areas, namely professional, have also improved. I...