Random Musings

Well, it looks like the layoff is official and I am part of it. I am having a hard time with this. I worked soo hard for this job and its projects and now I'm going to be gone. I created the projects, collected the data, analyzed the data, wrote up the results. Now, someone else is going to be able to get all of the data and continue the project that I created. Very upsetting and unjust. This guy is bumping into my position within the office. The office has become very toxic as a result. Even though I know it is not my fault and that state budget deficits and cuts have caused this, I have a hard time not taking it personally. I know that I am on the bottom of th totem pole because I was one of the last hires, so I was vulnerable to being cut, but it still hurts real bad. I know this isn't the end of the world, and I will find another job, it will just take some time. I want to go on the academic job market this year. I want that to be my next move..teach and do resear...

Well, I haven't really written anything in a while, actually since my mother's passing. Life has been stressful...and I want it to end. Not my life, just the stress. My work is experiencing widespread layoffs. Actually not that widespread. 15 people are being laid off and because it is the goverment, they have bumping rights. So, I am the lowest man on the totem pole, so I may be bumped. I am pretty pissed because I have worked real hard on some of my research projects and now someone else may get to do them, even though they didn't even come up with the ideas, the concepts, nothing. They may even be able to publish off of them! That is really pissing me off. Not that loosing my job is bad enough, but then having someone just take my ideas and act as though they are theirs...that is the worst part. I am not really sure any of this will happen. I really hope not. I pray that it will all be okay...and that they will take the lay off themselves and not bump another per...